Last night Jo commented on her facebook page that she was cleaning. I reacted like jerk and said some sarcastic stuff about how I had passed out upon hearing that. I also outed her about the fact that you aren’t actually cleaning if you are on facebook.
This morning I had an attack of guilt. Not because I was mean to Jo. She can take it. I felt bad because I have been reading some stuff lately about the “Ministry of Mediocrity” and was all into it, I thought.
I’m not sure where the term actually comes from, or who to really give credit to, but I read about mediocrity here
. It is a cool idea. The premise is that you show your flaws to help other people get over their own insecurities.
I am an unashamed mocker, usually. Today I am ashamed of myself. Jo was bravely putting her flaws out there and I did not support her.
Showing my flaws is not a strong suit of mine. Sure I can be self deprecating, but not ever about the things that REALLY bother me about myself. I will vacuum the rug before Huck has friends to play, as if six year old boys would notice crumby rugs. I will actually delete pictures off my camera because the background shows toys all over the floor. I have almost NO pictures of me with my kids. I say it is because I am always the one behind the camera, but really its because I delete any picture of me that isn’t flattering.
I hand wrote some ideas for a post last night. I was going to call it “So I am confessing my mediocrity”. It was (obviously) going to be hysterical, but heartwarming. Now I don’t deserve that post. It would have been great, but I am punishing myself and letting it fade away.
In my great post I was going to tell you some of my dirty little secrets about hairy legs and messy closets. It was going to border on TMI
, but not cross the line. Slightly crass, but not full on tacky.
Instead I am going to simply post a picture of the most embarrassing mess in my house currently and a picture of myself, unedited, exactly what I look like right now. No shower, glasses on, no make-up, bad angle and lighting because I am taking it myself… Yikes!
Until now, I didn’t have a current picture of myself on this blog because I can’t stand the thought of posting something that makes me look less than perfect. Wow, am I really that shallow? Yup. That’s why these pictures will come down in a few days. Shallowness is one of my many mediocre traits. Feel free to mock me. I would do the same to you.